Midnight ramblings
I am awake at 12:40am because my mind has not realized that it is acceptable to shut off every once and a while. The weight of 1,000,000 pounds of stress continues to rack my brain and force it to contemplate the various ways in which to solve the world’s problems up to and including my own.
What I wouldn’t give for the ability to compartmentalize and separate myself from my worries so that I could attack them with a much more precise battle plan or even still that I could set them aside for an hour or two in which to get the rest that is necessary for all manner of being to function.
Instead, I lie here and let waves of anxiety keep my eyes open long after they have signaled their intent to shut. My burdens have become so heavy, I fear that soon, they will be all that I have.
At some point in time I am assured a solution will present itself and a compromise reached between my body and the mind that is currently holding it hostage, but sadly, that point in time is not tonight.
And so it is with great distress, that I lie here, in the hopes that tonight, as in nights before, my body will score a victory in its battle to recharge itself, knowing full well that there will be much more fighting still ahead if it hopes to win the war.
